... kreativitas hanya sebatas mimpi yang terbatas jika tak lekas diwujudkan dalam nyata yang jelas ...

Thursday 29 July 2010

Maaf ... Ibu


Ketakutan itu melebihi apapun
Aku hanya mampu terpuruk
Dan dia tertawa bahagia
Menyaksikanku berpeluh air mata
Bunda, maafkan aku
Andaikan aku bisa
Segera akan ku wujudkan impian itu
Impian yang teramat mustahil bagi ku
Karena bagi ku
Itu hal yang akan sangat menyakitkan
Maaf kan aku

Alasan


Ku sudah lelah
Ku tahu hidupmu parah
apa kau kira aku tidak?
Kenapa saat ini aku masih bertahan?
Karena DIA
takdir . .
Karena keluarga
cita cita . .
Karena kau
semuanya . .
Kau mengubah semuanya
Kau menghidupkannya
Kau segalanya
Kau alasanku tetap ada
Tapi kenapa kau begitu?
Kau tahu?
Owh, bukan . .
Kau harus tahu
Kau lah harapan terakhirku . .

Untuk mu


Dia tak pernah tahu
ku sebut namanya di tiap doaku
dia hanya tahu aku khawatir padanya
Dia tak pernah tahu
aku sakit jika dia terpuruk
dia hanya tahu aku simpati padanya
Dia tak pernah tahu
aku tak pernah putus memikirkannya
dia hanya tahu aku menanyakan keberadaannya
Dia tak pernah tahu
aku menangis karena cintaku padanya
dia hanya tahu aku tersenyum padanya
Dia tak pernah tahu
aku akan gila jika dia tiada
dia hanya tahu aku marah jika dia pergi jauh
Dia tak pernah tahu
sakitnya aku ketika dia mengacuhkanku
dia hanya tahu aku terdiam seribu kata
Dia tak pernah tahu
begitu cintanya aku hatiku dan rasaku padanya
dia hanya tahu aku membutuhkannya
Saat ini
aku hatiku dan rasaku hanya untuknya
Aku benci dia
karena kata maaf, terserah & terimakasihnya
Rasaku sakit karena sesuatu itu darinya
karena benci dan sakit itu
justru semakin aku dalam mencintainya
semoga memang dia yang terakhir
Yang memang hanya untukku
sampai maut menjemputnya dan aku

Monday 26 July 2010

Especially For


Never knows he
Say I his name in each prayer
Nothing but worry at him I am
Never knows he
Down I when he broke
Nothing but piteous at him I am
Never knows he
Deeply thought him I always
Nothing but inquire his being I
Never knows he
Tears down hard for him my adore
Nothing but at him I smile beautifully
Never knows he
Will be going insane I if he leaves me
Nothing but furious I am if far he moves away
Never knows he
How sick I am when he ignores me
Nothing but at him in thousands silent I am
Never knows he
At him just my heart and sense of love
Nothing but he is just I need
Even now, these heart, sense and soul
for him especially
Hate I cause his apology and thank
Do sick I am cause those words
The pain and hate lead me
reach the deep sense of loving him
He the last I hope
For me just, till the death take him and me

Kepicikan Ku


Yang terfikir saat ini hanya mati
Melihat jalanan
ingin rasanya ditabrak
Melihat gedung tinggi
ingin rasanya melompat dari puncaknya
Melihat pisau
ingin rasanya mengiris urat nadi tangan
Melihat racun
Ingin rasanya minum
Dan mengeluarkan busa kematian dari mulutku
Melihat tali
ingin rasanya menggantung diri
Melihat pistol
ingin rasanya menembus kepalaku
melihat jurang
ingin rasanya terjun bebas
jatuh terkapar dibawahnya
Melihatnya melihatmu dan melihat mereka
ingin rasanya melakukan semua itu
dalam satu waktu
Hanya mati yang terpikir saat ini
di otak busuk ku
Memang picik …
haruz picik …
entahlah …
picik sungguh

Thursday 22 July 2010

My English for Specific Purposes's Article


SNOW

Snow is a beautiful thing. It is precipitation in the form of small white ice crystals. Snow is formed from the water vapor in the air at a temperature of less than 32 degrees Fahrenheit.
How do Snowflakes Form? It turns out that "pure" snow is made up of snowflakes which are made up of from 2 to 200 separate snow crystals.  Snow crystals are crystals that have formed around tiny bits of dirt that have been carried up into the atmosphere by the wind.
Scientists think that there are really four different shapes of snow crystals.  The simplest shape is a long needle shaped like a spike.  The other shapes all have six sides.  One of them is a long, hollow column that is shaped like a six-sided prism.  There are also thin, flat six-sided plates.  And lastly there are intricate, six-pointed stars. The shape that a snow crystal will take is dependent upon the temperature at which it was formed.  The temperature in the highest clouds is around -30°F and they are made up exclusively of ice crystal columns.  The other three shapes are formed in a narrow temperature range.  When the temperature in the clouds is  3° to 10°F the star shaped crystals form.  From 10°-18°F the plates form, and from 18°-23°F columns form.  From 23°-27°F needles form and from 27°-32°F the plates reappear. Each snowflake is made up of from 2 to about 200 separate crystals.
All precipitation (rain and snow) comes from water vapor in the air. If the air is warm, the frozen droplets melt and fall to the earth as rain. If the air is cold, however, the water vapor crystallizes around a speck of ice or dust and falls to the earth as snow. If there is no dust for the water vapor to crystallize on, it will remain in the air as a cloud, even if it gets as cold as -40 degrees Celsius(-40oF)!
Why is snow white? Snow crystals reflect the full spectrum of light, which we see as white. However, some snow is red, green, blue, or black. This occurs because of beautifully colored fungi that are rarely found in snow.
Did you know that freshly fallen snow is much lighter than water? The reason is that there is a lot of air between the flakes! In very dry areas, 1 centimeter of water will produce 20 centimeters of snow. In very moist areas, 6 centimeters of snow will melt down to only 1 centimeter of water. Because it is compressed, older snow has less air between flakes and contains much more water. Glaciers are formed from the compression of snow over many years.
The Eskimos, or Inuits, who live in the north, have developed many words in their language to describe the different types of snow. Some of these are:
  Anniu                ª     falling snow
 Api                     ª     ground snow
 Siqoq                 ª     smoky, drifting snow
 Upsik                 ª     wind-beaten snow
 kimoaqtruk      ª    snow drift
 salumaroaq      ª    smooth snowy surface of fine particles
 natatgonaq       ª   rough snowy surface of large particles
            Which country gets the most snow every year? The US. for example, is less snowy than Canada, on average -- by a lot. But there are places in the U.S. that receive more snow than most places in Canada. The U.S. has a long history of measuring "inches of snowfall" while that has not been a standard meteorological measurement in many other countries.
There are snowy places in high mountains in other parts of the world (Asia, for example) but snowfall generally falls short of those areas that are closer to relatively warm oceans. So some of the possibilities become the U.S. Pacific NW, British Columbia in Canada. The areas of SE Alaska where mountain ranges are close to the Pacific. Then head over to Europe -- the Alps harvest a lot of Atlantic and Mediterranean Sea moisture. The mountains of Norway get tons of snow. In the southern Hemisphere there are fewer candidates, but the best is the southern Andes mountains, and the mountain ranges of New Zealand.
The type of snow that skiers like best is called powder snow. This type of snow is good for most snow sports. Powder snow is usually dry or slightly moist. Its density has to be less than 200 kilograms for every meter of snow. The density of something indicates how much it is compacted. Snow that is more densely packed makes better snowballs.

Wednesday 21 July 2010

Sesal (A Poem)

Mula hujan asa turun dengan derasnya
Raga jiwa yang kering, basah seketika
Sayang, hanya sekedip mata saja
Jejaknya hilang entah kemana
Dia jadi tandus
Hingga jutaan debu haru
Melayang terbang terbawa angin pilu
Jatuh dan penuh di ruang hati yang lesu
Dindingnya retak, dan pondasinya hampir layu
Si asa tega berkelana tanpa sudi bersua
Tak lagi ada embun suka
Tak lagi ada tetesan bahagia
Mungkin si asa sudah tiada
Kin hanya tatapan kecewa yang setia bersandar di dada jiwa

Thursday 8 July 2010

Everything about E - M - O


EMO
Emo has two different meanings. One is a style of music. The other is a label people use to describe a group. The group of teens that use the label say that emo is short for emotional, but the term originally came from the Indie music style called Emotive Hardcore. It is a sub-genre of punk.

The music:
It's basically punk rock, except the lyrics are about emotional things rather than being a rebel. Emo is a kind of rock music which describes several independent types of music with common similar roots. Mid-tempo hardcore punk, pioneered around roughly '85 by the D.C. band Rites of Spring. It's in no relation to the pseudo-emocore/mall punk of today. Google REVOLUTION SUMMER/MID-WEST EMO for more information on the legitimate genre.
The People:
It is a label people give themselves for being apathetic and emotional to an extreme (usually miserable), but wallowing in it and not wanting it to change. They tend to feel they are misunderstood and that life is not fair to them in specific. It is in fashion with some of the group to cut themselves and wear heavy eye make-up. The hair cuts tend to have awkward sharp angles and are often glossed. Many of the guys wear very tight jeans, often women's. The girls tend to lean more towards late 70's to early 80's fashion.
Taken from http://wiki.answers.com

Emo is a somewhat ambiguous slang term most frequently used to describe or refer to a fashion, style, or attitude linked to post-hardcore. Emo may also describe emo music or a general emotional state (as in to "feel emo"). It is also (sometimes pejoratively) used to identify someone who fits a particular emo stereotype or category or someone who is overly-emotional.

When referring to a person's personality and attitude, most definitions of emo hold that an emo person is emotionally candid, sensitive, shy, introverted, glum, and quiet. Depressed and broken-hearted are sometimes used to describe the emo personality. Emo music and poetry contain multiple references to unrequited love, emotional and relationship problems. Being melodramatic or overly emotional is also often associated with being emo.

By almost all current definitions, Emo clothing is characterized by tight jeans on males and females alike, long fringe (bangs) brushed to one side of the face or over one or both eyes, dyed black, straightened hair, tight t-shirts which often bear the names of rock bands (or other designed shirts), studded belts, belt buckles, canvas sneakers or skate shoes or other black shoes (often old and beaten up) and, if they wear glasses, they will often be thick, black horn-rimmed glasses. Emo fashion has changed with time; early trends included haircuts similar to those worn by the Romulans and Vulcans in Star Trek, tightly fitting sweaters, button-down shirts, and work jackets (often called gas station jackets).

In the years since emo music's rise in popularity, it has attracted severe criticism.[9] Emo has been characterized as a fad that will be discarded and forgotten in the near future.[10] Critics cast the fashion as "embarrassing," and the people as imagining or pretending that they lead harsh, painful lives when they actually live in comfortable homes.

Emo people are portrayed as melodramatic, self-pitying teenagers who pour their efforts into writing depressing poetry. Contemporary emo has been called a "sad caricature" of what it once was.

This site is intended to be a basic FAQ and primer on emo - short for "emotional." Emo is a broad title that covers a lot of different styles of emotionally-charged punk rock. This site is intended to introduce the reader to all the common styles, describe them musically, and give ideas about the essential records of all those styles. You will be an expert in emo, in the broad sense, after reading this website.

Some pointers about emo fashions (above simple, universal hardcore attire)

    * the Emo Romulan look - short, thick, greasy, dyed-black hair with bangs cut straight across the forehead, and cut high over the ears. Someone from Time In Malta recently described to me the San Diego Crimson Curse scene as "Spock Rock."
    * actually, any greasy dyed black hair. Bangs in front and spikes in back is very emo too.
    * horn-rim glasses, or at least thick black frames.
    * bald head, furry face (boys only). Goes especially well with horn-rims.
    * heavy slacks, often too tight and short.
    * thin, too-small polyester button-ups in dark colors, or threadbare children's size t-shirts with random slogans. Button the collar if you got one.
    * clunky black shoes
    * scarves
    * gas station jackets. This has diffused a lot over the years though, it's no longer exclusive to emo kids. Nowadays, you may want to select a nice corduroy denim jacket.
    * also classic outerwear but quickly diffusing to normality: the famous Blue Peacoat
    * too-small cardigans and v-neck sweaters
    * argyle

The emo jacket is a sort of work jacket that you can only find in army-navy or thrift stores. Usually in earth tones, gray, brown, maybe a navy blue with stripes. All style. The emo jacket is a product of the nineties. Popularized by the kings of cool, Nation of Ulysses and others, Antioch Arrow, Hoover, Rocket From the Crypt. Never overdone. Maybe a patch or two, but placed strategically with the utmost intention. A patch on an emo jacket is not to be ignored.

The emo jacket radiates an underlying assertion, "I'm cooler than you." It's a sublime statement of intuitive knowledge, internal hipness. It whispers, it doesn't scream. It doesn't have to."

That's right - baggy shorts are straight-edge fashion, not emo."
 By Oly Polly

"Emo is not Goth, but they come from the same place "

Goth kids think Emo kids are posers.  Emo kids... emo kids don't care what you think.

Both goth and emo come from the same adolescent urges to rebel against convention while fitting in with their peers, combined with severe mood swings that afflict all teenagers.

Goth culture is inspired by Victorian romanticism.  It deals with the mood swings by affecting a supernatural air, celebrating a kind of death-within-life like the Victorian gothic horror novels.  That's where it gets its name from, despite having very little to do with the Gothic architecture where the novels were set.  That gothic architecture was itself a revival of a medieval Gothic church architecture, which ultimately derives from the Goth tribes.  A Visigoth or Ostrogoth would have no patience with a Goth Kid and probably whack his head off with a sword.

Emo kids insist they're not copying Goth, and both the dress and music are very similar.  Both, however, wear a lot of black clothing, black makeup, black hair dye, etc.  It can be very hard to tell whether a boy wearing a black leather trenchcoat, long black tresses, and enough mascara that he can barely keep his lids open is Goth or Emo.

In fact there is a lot of overlap between the two cultures because Goth is so very, very broad.  An emo kid would never wear a pink frilly dress with black leather suspenders, but a Goth girl would adore the irony.

Emo kids don't get irony.  The name is short for "emotional", and it's their way of dealing with the mood swings, by expressing it in maudlin songs.  The songs don't SOUND maudlin, because they're very loud and filled with harsh electronic sounds.  In fact, it sounds exactly like the sort of harsh, beat-driven electronica favored by the goth crowds, at least to those who aren't intimately familiar with the differences. 

There in fact ARE no absolute differences, because there are no solid definitions of the two groups.  They're big and amorphous.  Emo kids tend to be younger (it's something you usually grow out of at the end of adolesence), while goth can keep going into the 20s.  In fact, the irony can be so delicious that I've seen goths much older than that.

You include the "punk" topic, and punk is yet another manifestation of the same underlying adolescent ideas.  Old punks deride goths as simply copying them, and the fashion is very similar.  The music is also very similar, except that punk is mostly about traditional electric instruments and goth has a strong electronic, computer-generated element.

Punks were also much more politically outrageous, while goth and emo kids are usually apolitical because apathy is their defense against... well, whatever. 
By Pam Perdue


"Emo" is not short for "Emotional." "Emo" does not mean Taking Back Sunday and Dashboard Confessional, despite what MTV has lead you to believe in the last few years. "Emo" is not sidebangs, tight pants, and male vocalists who sing like little girls about their failed relationships. "Emo" is not the use of diluted, meaningless metaphors and similes such as "My arms are like pinecones," and most definitely is not the rampant use of words such as "autumn," "heart," "knife," "bleeding," "leaves," and "razorblade."

I just thought I'd clear that up after all of these "definitions" in which I have encountered an unbelievable amount of people who try to pass off their blatantly false pretenses as fact, and are slowly infecting others with their high-horse, holier-than-thou bullshit. Because honestly, with your ridiculous definitions, Beethoven, George Gershwin, and Britney Spears are/was "emo bands."


Now, onto the real definition.


In the early 90s there was a movement in the hardcore genre that came to be known as "Emotive Hardcore," spearheaded by Rites Of Spring. Harder-core-than-thou kids, who swore by Dischord Records a la Minor Threat, actually coined the term "Emo" as something of a put-down for the kids who really liked Rites Of Spring, Indian Summer and this new wave of "Emotive" Hardcore bands. That's right, "Emo" was once not something kids called themselves. The field exploded outwards from there - Level-Plane Records has always been the most famous Emo label....
 
By Chelsea




Punk music on estrogen. Often acoustic guitar with soft, high male vocals that dwell exessively on the singer's feelings, especially melancholy remembrances of past relationships/mistakes in life. A form of music that diverged from punk in the '80s, the name "emo" is derived from the emotive style of the lyrics and music. This genre has lately been marketed heavily by the music industry to teenagers with bands such as Dashboard Confessional and Taking Back Sunday, and has seen much commercial and mainstream success. The music has also spawned a subculture which conforms to certain conventions in dress such as tight sweatshirts, tight band T-shirts and horn-rim glasses. Adherents profess to exessively melancholy temperments. Males that adhere to the emo subculture are sometimes confused with metrosexuals; indeed the line between the two is somwhat blurred, though both groups claim to be intouch with their emotional side. The ephemeral and hackneyed nature of emo songwriting suggests that its audience will be restricted largely to teenagers. the genre suffers from a lack of credibility outside the aforementioned demographic group, much like current Nu Metal bands.
girlfriend: C'mon, lets have sex.
boyfriend: I'm too sad to have sex.
girlfriend: I'm sad too; lets have sex and cry.
boyfriend: I'm already crying.
By Pureblarney

Emo is ....
 An entire subculture of people (usually angsty teens) with a fake personality. The concept of Emo is actually a vicious cycle that never ends, to the utter failing of humanity, and it goes something like this:

1. Girls say they like "sensitive guys" (lie)
2. Guy finds out, so he listens to faggy emo music and dresses like a dork so chicks will see that he is sensitive and not afraid to express himself (lie). He dyes his hair black, wraps himself in a stupid looking scarf, develops an eating disorder, and rants about how "nobody understands".
3. Now an emo guy, he meets Emo chick and they start dating, talking about how their well-off suburban lifestyles are terrible and depressing (lie)
4. Emo guy is just too much of a pussy. His penis is too small, he's too depressed to bathe, and has more mood swings than emo chick, and he doesn't even have a menstrual cycle. Emo chick dumps him, saying "It's not you, it's me." (lie) as she drives off with Wayne, the school jock and captain of the football team.
5. Emo guy goes home and cries, proceeds to write a weak song and strum a single string on his acoustic guitar. Another emo chick sees how he is so in touch with his feelings, and the cycle continues.

This is the sad truth of the emo lifestyle/music, and now that I look at how pathetic it really is, maybe the emos DO have something to cry about!
When she sees how sensitive and emo I have become, she'll definately go out with me!
 By Chernorizets Hrabr
So, guys... have you understood what E - M - O is?????
Give your comments ;-) 


Wednesday 7 July 2010

Kisah Tentang Kau


Pertemuan itu anugrah
Perkenalan itu pun anugrah
Perasaan itu?
Apa juga anugrah?
Entahlah
Hati tak henti menebar senyum
jantung tak henti menari riang
darah tak henti mengalirkn arus kebahagiaan
Aneh … sayangnya . . .
Kau tak merasa telah menampar semuanya
tertegun & hancur dalam sekejap
Sakit? Bukan sakit … lebih dari sakit
Kau menuntun ku dengan samar ke jalan itu
Kau tak ada disitu
Kau kemana?
Hatiku tertatih menapaki jalan itu
Hatiku terlalu rapuh karena mu
Hatiku selalu akan menangis karena sikapmu
Hatiku telah remuk
Mungkin hanya sebentar dia tersadar
Tapi . . . kau tahu?
Hatiku sudah mati karena mu